Posted by special_k on March 23, 2006, at 21:16:14
In reply to :-(, posted by Damos on March 22, 2006, at 22:43:11
how are you feeling today?
better or worse or much the same?> Thought I was okay yesterday.....I really did
> Thought special_k's posts explained it
> And they did.........to a large extent
> And yesterday was different to most days and today
> And today
> I'm not doing so good :-(
> Not so good at all
> Been on the verge of tears all day
> What is wrong with me?
> I hate feeling like this
> Variable
> Just feeling so lost
> So very, very lost
> Disheartened and disillusioned
> And broken
> And alone
> And stupid, really, really stupid
> And abandoned
> And like everything I've learned and know means nothing
> That I'm non-existent
> I don't fit, won't fit, can't fit
> That I've wasted so much time and effort here
> I hate it
> So much doubt
> And frustration
> And questions, so many d*mn question
> None of which have answers
> Confusions and conflicts
> No meaning, or value or purpose to any of it
> And that hurts cause I need it
> Thought I'd come right
> But I haven't
> Not good at talking about my feeling, much less writing about them
> I don't mean to shut people out, I don't, but I do cause I don't know what to say
> Don't understand the feelings much less how to describe them
> And I hate being a burden, but I am and I know it
> Because when it does go to custard
> I go where I feel safe - and that's so few places
> And I hate it
> I'm sorry
poster:special_k
thread:623529
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/write/20060125/msgs/623935.html