Posted by Honore on July 1, 2007, at 9:12:21
In reply to Re: Work, Painting, posted by Honore on June 24, 2007, at 10:24:16
My work, or failure or inability to do it even faintly okay, has gotten me really depressed. I also haven't been sleeping, and my T is away, which may be contributing, esp. the former. But last night after I finished working, I was the most upset I've been.. It's starting to feel as if I'm just no good at this.
I also haven't yet been able to be consistent in getting the solder to flow right. Even if some of it flows, some it it curls up like a prune & stays where it was.
I'm still pretty depressed this am, even though I took a ton of lorazepam and xanax last night, and managed to sleep about 7 1/2 without waking up much.
I think I feel more rested, although I'll have to see how the day goes. I thought I was more rested about four days ago, too-- and I got terribly tired by early afternoon. Not my usual pattern, but made it very hard to work.
I'll probably go to the jewelry studio today at noon.
Honore
PS use terra rosa, not venetian red. don't like venetian red as much. Like mars violet, and terra rosa.
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