Posted by James K on February 22, 2006, at 16:58:25
I'm just posting this because it's what I feel right now. I'm supposed to and need to go into a hospital. I haven't yet, for reasons that are probably obvious to everyone. I've been drunk for around 3 weeks, and today is the first day I felt like not hurting myself by pouring alcohol down my throat. I've been very violent in attitude lately. Maybe I will make the phone call tomorrow, if I'm not hungover. rambling.
I don't know what I want or how to get it. I'm not trying to get answers here, but I may post on this thread later if not drinking becomes less important to remind myself. I've been drinking a lot, even by my standards, and I'm worn out. I've always detoxed okay. Does clonazepam help with withdrawal? Like when they give you librium in the hospital? Can I even be physically addicted again this quick, after only 3 weeks, or whatever it has been. I was sober off and on for a while before this period.
I addicted myself on purpose (I mean physically, not like "alcoholics are addicts for life"). I don't know why. I've done it before. I mean like making myself physically dependent on alcohol as opposed to just drinking because I like it and want to. I think it's another form of self harm. But since it was only 3 weeks, not 3 months or so, or years (like when it wasn't done purposefuly) I should be okay with stopping.
If someone reads this, I hope it makes sense to you.
James K
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