Posted by verne on November 1, 2005, at 23:20:07
In reply to Re: Drinking Again, posted by CleverGuy on November 1, 2005, at 2:19:38
I'll check that website, rational.org out.
I'm not in any sort of program although AA and spiritual approaches have helped in the past - to an extent.
What struck me about AA and 12-step programs was that so much time was spent "not" drinking they hadn't escaped their addiction afterall. But in the end a dry drunk is probably less harmful to the captive.
When I was the most free of my problem with alcohol, I had surrendered - there was a letting go and a kind of spiritual rebirth. This surprised me since, in the past, I had dismissed anything spiritual as really bad philosophy.
After my religious experience I hopped from church to church, played the tambourine at full-gospel revivals, and tried various forms of prayer. Eventually I became disillusioned with how man-made, self-centered, and worldly it all seemed.
I neither knew nor loved God, and wasn't about to invent one for that purpose. I seemed to be the only one not on speaking terms with God. Nevertheless, something had touched me and I experienced peace, love, and freedom from addiction like never before.
Somehow I've found my way back to my previous state of misery and mixed metaphors. I guess I tried to change horses in midstream and fell between them. To continue with the metaphor, or to beat a dead horse,(another horse) I've lost my footing and find myself being swept downstream.
i'll be quiet.
verne
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