Posted by ClearSkies on October 17, 2005, at 15:30:51
Like the Eveready rabbit beating my drum.
I've had a tough time with anxiety. Weaned off from xanax during the last couple of weeks and now have to deal with the waves of yuck panic and the clutch at my chest. When I've worried about it - should I take a pill, I'm not in a place (physically) to meditate, what if it's my blood pressure going high that I feel, etc... then I start to worry about something else while feeling like crap.
Then when I come back to it, it's... gone. For the time being, anyways. Without me having had to do anything, it just kind of ebbed away. It ebbs back, of course, but I think I will be able to stay xanax free. Hopefully my anxiety will continue its retreat, slowly.This is what my sobriety has been like so far. When I start to worry about it, my mind starts to jump all over the place. I start to worry about something else, and then when I get back to worrying about staying sober, I'm ALRIGHT. I'm OK. I'm still sober, another day has passed.
It's quite remarkable.
If I don't do anything, I'm still sober.I'm very much relying on my local sobriety group for their support. The intense relationships formed during the outpatient programme have turned to dust. Without the daily therapy to feed those relationships, they have been starved of their livelihoods, and withered. I took it quite personally (that's me, look for the thorns on the rose being offered to me!) but have since been told by a couple of people that it's happened to them too. So I'm letting that go, and it's OK.
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