Posted by Faradism.net on January 3, 2005, at 18:25:10
In reply to smoke screens and real people » Faradism.net, posted by alexandra_k on January 3, 2005, at 17:45:49
> >Some people don't like themselves so they make someone up.
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> I am afraid that I do this too. It is a weakness of mine :-) But I try to behave in a caring manner though sometimes even that goes out the window for me... I used to have a major problem with Speed, LSD, magic mushrooms, cannibus, benzo's... Well, you name it really. Whatever I could get my hands on. A combo of LSD speed and cannibus for preference though I suppose...
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> I went through rehabs but no luck. Kicked out for using. I went through AA and NA but no luck, just kept on using. I went back to university and for me that was enough to keep me clean. When it came to choosing between doing my work / going to class or getting high then university won for me every time. I have no idea why my priorities are organised that way. I don't think that strategy would work for everyone. I am lucky I suppose. I still use occasionally. Go on the occasional bender. But varsity is there for me at the end of the day. It is that that keeps me clean.
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Well you go girl. I wish I could let go and do some speed but it makes me into a weak, porno seeking.... dangling partcipal. I only do about a 20 and then spend about 100 at the wack-en-hut out in Hollywood. I was fortunate enough to have developed a sever pain to my hand and wrist. They say its corpo tunnel (sp?) syndrome. I say its a gift from the powers that be. Once I noticed the pain after and all nighter at the "hut", I started thinking about the experience and all that goes with the drug while feeling the pain. I would picture my dope dealers face or the drug its self or the subway trip to get there and this killed my thought of using! I still mentaly revist the "Hut" whenever I am in pain. Thanks for sharing. The "whatever, at least its dangling" TIME carbajal P.S. Why are you afraid to call keemo sabe todo?
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