Posted by antigua on October 30, 2004, at 12:03:47
In reply to don't know what to do, posted by Caper on October 27, 2004, at 9:54:17
That's a really tough call. I certainly understand it. Thursday night my T wanted me to go in the hospital but I wouldn't for the very same reasons. I was worried about the effect on my kids and husband. They wouldn't see it as me getting better, they would see it as a confusing abandonment.
I didn't go and I'm fighting it out at home by myself. (I literally didn't get out of bed yesterday at all). It's working, but it's dangerous.
I would have liked to have gone to the hospital but I thought it was selfish. Sometimes we have to be selfish, though. Only you know where the line is--whether you are so close to the edge that if you don't go, the consequences will be even worse.
Maybe you could sit down and have a really good talk w/your son... he's 10 and knows a lot more than you may realize. If you know he would be safe and taken care, you could feel comfortable leaving him. Find out what his concerns are and help alleviate them.
Checking in to a place where you felt comfortable could do you a world of good. It would give you the jump start that you might need. If you can think long-term, this is probably a great opportunity for you to make progress.
Kind of sounds like do as I say, not as I do, but I think you get the point. If I feel there is no other option to keeping myself safe, I will go to the hospital.
best,
antigua
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