Posted by Caper on July 8, 2004, at 16:50:32
In reply to Darn I keep posting before I'm finished!!, posted by partlycloudy on July 8, 2004, at 7:22:32
I'm so glad you're feeling more positive and taking things one at a time so you don't get quite so overwhelmed.
You mentioned moving a lot while growing up. That's another thing we have in common. (The list just keeps growing doesn't it? *smile*) I was also bounced around during childhood. My father is in the military so we moved every 2 or 3 years. Not a good thing for a shy girl like me. For so long "friends" was a word that didn't apply to me; friends were something others had.
I'll be thinking of you and sending mental good wishes during your upcoming danger time when your husband is away.
I might have told you this already, I can't remember, but joining a gym is a GREAT thing. I like treadmills, stairmasters and things like that because it gives me a healthy form of oblivion- or I guess I should say a healthy way to just sort of zone out and let my mind wander when it's sober. But I also recently took up weights. Just 8lb dumbells, and it's only about a 20 minute routine but I highly recommend any physical exercise. It makes me feel stronger mentally and physically, and when I'm done I don't want to "spoil" the good I've just done by drinking that poison we call alcohol.
And as far as too much information? You couldn't give me too much if you tried. We obviously do have some kind of connection and I'm very grateful to have you to talk with as well.
Take care of yourself.
Caper
> I know for a fact that I use alcohol to offset my acute loneliness. The isolation I feel goes back to my very earliest memories; an indifferent mom, living in a neighbourhood where us anglo kids weren't allowed to play with the french or italian ones (this was in Montreal). Add in moving at criticial times during my social development, and you have a woman who is not used to enjoy being with other people, and expects to be shunned as I have in the past. Alcohol numbs all that pain and takes me out of the environment.
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> It's not that I'm afraid of meeting new people - I worked in sales (!!) for many years - but I don't believe that I'm worthy of friendship.
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> Wow, too much information here from me, Caper. We set off little triggers for each other in opening up about out situations. That is a very good thing, and I'm very happy to have someone to share this journey with.
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> Together we can only be stronger.
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