Posted by partlycloudy on July 8, 2004, at 7:22:32
In reply to Re: Caper, how are you these days?, posted by partlycloudy on July 8, 2004, at 7:13:02
I know for a fact that I use alcohol to offset my acute loneliness. The isolation I feel goes back to my very earliest memories; an indifferent mom, living in a neighbourhood where us anglo kids weren't allowed to play with the french or italian ones (this was in Montreal). Add in moving at criticial times during my social development, and you have a woman who is not used to enjoy being with other people, and expects to be shunned as I have in the past. Alcohol numbs all that pain and takes me out of the environment.
It's not that I'm afraid of meeting new people - I worked in sales (!!) for many years - but I don't believe that I'm worthy of friendship.
Wow, too much information here from me, Caper. We set off little triggers for each other in opening up about out situations. That is a very good thing, and I'm very happy to have someone to share this journey with.
Together we can only be stronger.
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