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Posted by Impermanence on June 5, 2004, at 22:28:28

I'm so drunk right now, I don't know why I'm posting. I stole my dads bmw tonight to get more drink.. I got home safely, thank god..
I can't stop drinking, I'm on a big binge at the moment...
I just wanted to share my thoughts with you, I feel like such a useless c**t now I have twelve cans of larger by my side..
When I start I find it very hard to stop... I have drank myself to oblivion so many times and know the consequences but yet I just can't help myself..
I know when I get sober I'll be fine, I will take control, but as I'm drinking I'm a f**king mess.
I want to feel alive so much, drinking makes me feel alive but also tells me to just cut my wrists yet again and get it over with..
I'm so lucky to have what I have but I still feel this life is nothing but a tedious test of my patients.
I'm drunk now so please ignore what I say, I'll be sorry I posted this tomorrow..

Sorry to go on so much about myself Caper, I'm just depressed and feeling sorry for me at the moment. It's so pathetic, I know...
Lot's of love xxxxxxx
P.s. NikkiT2, I get the f**king message, thank you all the same..

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