Posted by Caper on June 2, 2004, at 21:18:36
In reply to Re: Addiction: how did it start for you? » Caper, posted by partlycloudy on May 28, 2004, at 7:25:01
> Caper, I told my history in the above thread, but I wanted to share that I did do a major thing in my last "crisis". I admitted to my spouse that I drink while he's out of town and get rid of the evidence. He was glad that I confided in him. I felt great relief and I know I have to force myself out of the house and my safe cocoon and into the rest of the world. It's a scary place for me but I have to work on being a part of it.
Hi partlycloudy,
You sound _so_ much like me sometimes! I'm living an extremely limited life right now as well and like you, I was the one who "confessed" my drinking. No one knew until I told. From my family I received some scorn, some support, but never knew which it would be when in crisis! Sometimes hugs, other times car doors deliberately slammed so they will hit my arm (my mom once when in a total rage about a relapse).
How are you doing now?
I'm recently out of another detox and drinking again already (although lightly and I'm tapering.... also no more Vodka, only wine as the Vodka was tearing up my stomach and throat).
This may sound extremely shallow but one of the biggest motivators for me to quit drinking is the weight gain it has caused. Even though I hide it well because I'm small boned, at one point I'd gained 60 pounds in the first 9 months of drinking! I've since lost about 20 of it. Anyway, I'm meeting one of my oldest college friends in two weeks for the first time in 10 years and I don't want to be all bloated (vanity, vanity). I'm also stepping up the exercise routine, as it seems to give me a "high" that reduces my cravings.
Let me know how you are. Hope you are well.
Caper
P.S. Your husband sounds like a sweetie!
P.P.S. Are you American? I can usually tell by people's style of writing and word usage but I'm not sure about you. If you don't want to say, no problem. I'm just curious. Maybe Canadian? Take care.
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