Posted by Porter on November 10, 2003, at 17:02:22
This is my first time doing this (I have no idea if I am doing it correctly) I guess I just thought this would be a way to talk to people about issues, etc. that I would otherwise be unwilling to talk about.
I stopped drinking about three weeks ago (Not my first attempt) and it was going allright though I couldn't sleep without swallowing a lot of pills. The last couple of nights I finished off the last of a bourbon bottle left over from the last binge. Taking quite a bit of pills with it.
I am seeing a psychologist and have been put on effexor for depression and anxiety but I don't think either one is doing a bit of good.
I still am not sure if I want to try drinking in moderation or complete abstinence. Has anyone had success with moderation? I am not sure if I even want that; I never really drink to be social, though I can't be social without drinking. And I love getting drunk.
I had a successful break from drinking a while ago but gave that up when I was deployed (military). Not that there were many opportunities to drink in Afghanistan but when I got back I hit it with a vengeance. On a layover in Germany, I drank for four days, jumping out second floor window, crushing ankle, etc. Crazy time. And since I got home it only got worse. School went o.k. untill I got kicked off campus for drunken harrassment, resisting police, etc. We found an appartment but I was horribly depressed and feeling hopeless. I stopped going to classes and was drinking in the morning right after I woke up. Drinking allday everyday lying to my roommate untill he found me destroyed one night. Don't remember much but crying etc.
So I stopped drinking and started seeing the therapists.
Still taking pills, xanax, vicadin, sleeping pills so I don't really feel sober. I know I can't fall asleep without medication,
I guess this is a long and pointless message, I just wanted to hear about peoples experiences with not drinking, and with depression medications. I don't know anything. Thank you.
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