Posted by Caedmon on November 20, 2006, at 0:10:42 [reposted on November 22, 2006, at 9:34:45 | original URL]
In reply to Re: I know *exactly* what you mean! :-| » Caedmon, posted by jealibeanz on November 19, 2006, at 23:29:47
> Yeah... it's tough to make major personal progress and finally get this far in life, to the point where you think you're actually becoming a responsible/successful/"normal" adult and student. Then, fall flat on your face!>
I would just like some time... some space to make decisions. I feel like I have a million things piled up that I will never get done.
> I never thought that my academic abilties would stand in my way. My problems were always blamed on anxiety, but I suppose part of that anxiety has roots in my ADHD.>
Funny you should mention that. I have always been a cocky student. I slept through undergrad (sometimes literally), and walked out with honors. Then I come here and my first test is a 73 and I have to, *ahem*, "remediate". Something about ASHA certification, blah blah... well, okay.
I'm a good test-taker but I have horrible planning or life skills... and finding it come back and bite my *ss.
> Chris, I know you mentioned that you suspected some ADHD at one point, did you ever get this dx? >
I need to pursue it.
>Are you actually required to do your TA-ship, internship, plus full grad load simultaneously?>
Well, the TAship is so I can afford this frickin' school, which I just barely can as it is. The internship is later. I will actually feel better by then - it's less work to just, you know, work!
I'm definitely stretching out the program so I can take fewer grad credits. 15 is insane. Plus clinic. That is not for human beings. Sometimes I look at other grad students, with their measley 8 credits, and I think to myself, "Cheater! Cheater! That's not a Master's degree! It's just College II: The Uninspired Sequel! Take twice the classes and have a clinic supervisor tell you everything you did wrong 5 times a day, and try that on for size, beotch!" (Then I start drinking.)
Well, okay, i don't do all that. But I do feel frustration.
> I think about leaving evvvvvvery day.>
Yes, me too. Every day. I hate those thoughts but they don't leave me. I am so afraid that I am unfit for this.
> Do you have any suggestions as to how to approach my doc?>
Yes. Bribery. :P
Sorry, actually, I don't. I do recommend getting in touch w/ the disabilities center at your school. This is on my to-do list. If I ever get to it.
- Chris
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