Posted by jealibeanz on November 19, 2006, at 23:29:47
In reply to I know *exactly* what you mean! :-| (nm) » jealibeanz, posted by Caedmon on November 19, 2006, at 14:13:18
Yeah... it's tough to make major personal progress and finally get this far in life, to the point where you think you're actually becoming a responsible/successful/"normal" adult and student. Then, fall flat on your face!
I never thought that my academic abilties would stand in my way. My problems were always blamed on anxiety, but I suppose part of that anxiety has roots in my ADHD.
Chris, I know you mentioned that you suspected some ADHD at one point, did you ever get this dx? Are you actually required to do your TA-ship, internship, plus full grad load simultaneously? It's sounds like you have more flexibility and options than me (haha, since I have noo choices whatsoever beside take the 18 credits the school signs us up for, then, stay and pass, or fail and leave!)
I think about leaving evvvvvvery day. I only have 2 days til Thanksgiving break, and I just wanna quit. I have a retake exam because I failed one and that causes some great stress! Plus the stress of knowing that I have several courses where I have to take a comprehensive final since my grades are poor. And the other finals won't be too easy either.
Right now, my brain seems "short-circuited". It doesn't quite get that study/learning type of focus that I need. Plus, I'm wandering like crazy around my apartment and town, forgetting what I'm doing or creating new useless tasks. God, I need a break and some proper medication!
Do you have any suggestions as to how to approach my doc? I do have a good relationship with him. He's very fatherly, extremely friendly, enthusiastic, caring, and empathetic. He'll listen to every one of my stupid complaints and side effects, when most docs would blow them off, saying it's not common, or that I might as well never try any med again since I'm very sensitive.
However, I just have problems getting the ADHD words out. I don't want to tell him I'm doing poorly. And one of the hardest parts I have about ADHD, especially since I'm an adult, is that it is chronic. I just want to ignore it and pretend it will go away, but it won't! The only thing that gives me a little comfort is that I'm pretty sure he has ADHD (not always very well controlled, but I still trust our relationship enough to go to him), so unless I'm wrong, he doesn't think it's abnormal for problems to only fully manifest when in grad school.
As much as there's been a huge compaign for depression tx, and kids have been treated for ADHD for years, the adult type is still almost not thought to exist by many practitioners. If they are willing to treat, they wanna throw a non-stim at you.
My thought... the reason why more adults are being treated currently is 1) they were treated as children and are continuing 2) increased awareness in mental health 3) many seek treatment after diagnosis of a child 4) the hectic, overachieving expectations of our society are uncovering many ADHD'ers who were able to cope in a more laid back society
(side note: kinda like I hate saying the word depression, and for once that's actually not in the back of my mind... haha during psych class my instructor tells us to ignore all the sleep/mood disorder symtoms... since it's completely normal for us to have irregular sleep, major anxiety, depression (or at least a stressed-out, life sucks, I hate my school/my life/my class mates and I wanna go home type of mimicked depression... so I'm not too worried about that right now).
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