Posted by jealibeanz on November 20, 2006, at 2:24:17 [reposted on November 22, 2006, at 9:34:45 | original URL]
In reply to Re: I know *exactly* what you mean! :-| » jealibeanz, posted by Caedmon on November 20, 2006, at 0:10:42
> I would just like some time... some space to make decisions. I feel like I have a million things piled up that I will never get done.
That's classic!
> Funny you should mention that. I have always been a cocky student. I slept through undergrad (sometimes literally), and walked out with honors. Then I come here and my first test is a 73 and I have to, *ahem*, "remediate". Something about ASHA certification, blah blah... well, okay.
> I'm a good test-taker but I have horrible planning or life skills... and finding it come back and bite my *ss.I basically slept through undergrad too. I did no work. I didn't understand some things, but I too am an amazingly good test taker, in class and standardized.
> Well, the TAship is so I can afford this frickin' school, which I just barely can as it is. The internship is later. I will actually feel better by then - it's less work to just, you know, work!
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> I'm definitely stretching out the program so I can take fewer grad credits. 15 is insane. Plus clinic. That is not for human beings. Sometimes I look at other grad students, with their measley 8 credits, and I think to myself, "Cheater! Cheater! That's not a Master's degree! It's just College II: The Uninspired Sequel! Take twice the classes and have a clinic supervisor tell you everything you did wrong 5 times a day, and try that on for size, beotch!" (Then I start drinking.)
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You could take out a little more loan money. It's worth it in the end. You'll save your sanity, have a positive academic and clinic experience since you'll be less stressed, and will be less likely to need to repeat a course. In the end this may save you money, but most importantly, your happiness. BTW, the norm is 15 grad credits? Now, I realize my program/profession is insannnnnnnne and just wants to cram everything into on year, thus doubling the normal course load a a regular grad program, but most school consider 9 grad credits full-time (because the courses are harder and most students either work or do internships as well).
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> > Do you have any suggestions as to how to approach my doc?>
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> Yes. Bribery. :P
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> Sorry, actually, I don't. I do recommend getting in touch w/ the disabilities center at your school. This is on my to-do list. If I ever get to it.
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Haha, that's OK, not need to bribe my doc for meds. I have been on Strattera and Adderall before, so he's aware of my ADHD, but most likely considers it very mild, so it's just not discussed. He wasn't concerned when I stopped Strattera in the summer. If he thought I had major ADHD related impairment, he would have tried to discourage me or find an alternate med. Thus far, I've never indicated academic problems, and was able to get accepted, so he thinks I'm fine with school.He likes to work with me. He's very open to suggestions and isn't afraid of controlled substances (at least with me). Actually a few months ago he was ready to push Concerta because I was sleeping 18 hours/day, but I suggested Provigil due to past experience, so he went with that. So, I just need to find the courage to tell him. I shouldn't worry though. I always obsess over these things, and my appointments go very smoothly, almost better than planned, because I have a lot of input/freedom. We also love to chat, so we have fun together aside from my treatment/plan.
As far as approaching my school's resource center goes, I'll do that if need be. If my program needs to reschedule a final or give me a little extra time so I can adjust to meds and properly study, they'd have to get documentation to submit to their higher-ups.
I'll probably go back to my professor/advisor and tell her I'm slightly worried/scared/ashamed about mentioning this to my doc, and having second thoughts about going (even though she knows I have a great relationship with him and am not willing to see anyone else). I guess it's hard to tell the one's who care about you and are close to that you're struggling. I could easily blurt it out to a strange doc, but then would get distrustful treatment, not input, and prob no meds at first!
She's going to want to know whether I was able to get an appointment during break, or if I'll be missing class, so she may (hopefully! eek!) even approach me. I don't have a problem going to her though, at this point, my classmates and I are just soo open about our health problems, and commonly share them with the class as learning tools, and comfortable with treated our own bodies as objects, we're like walking open-wounds... no secrets here. (haha... I was about to volunteer to show the class my scar from a chest tube I'd had inserted, so they'd know where it's placed. As a female, that's ummm not exactly modest behavior due to the location!)
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