Posted by baseball55 on April 12, 2015, at 20:02:48
In reply to Re: procrastinator, posted by rjlockhart37 on April 11, 2015, at 17:39:51
I'll add one more thing, RJ, and I hope you won't find it too harsh. I have read your posts over the years (I have checked into this board for about nine years) and feel you have gradually begun to pathologize yourself and convince yourself that you are depressed/psychotic, whatever. I think your mother and p-doc enable this. I think you indulge yourself in the occasional rant about Satan to convince yourself that you are mentally ill. By being mentally ill, you can stay snuggled up in your little cocoon, where you don't have to take responsibility for yourself.
I don't think you are mentally ill at all. I think you are bored and alone and would improve rapidly and dramatically if you made a serious effort to leave home and find something to do that really engaged you (and no, I don't mean these computer courses you take, which seem to hold no interest for you at all). I think your initial assessment of yourself when you started posting here was correct - you have ADHD, but abuse stimulants.
Since you can't treat your ADHD with stimulants, you need to find non-medication ways to treat it. Therapy - for you, I would recommend group therapy, because I can't see you interacting with a therapist one-on-one except in this pathologized role you've taken on; exercise, meditation, support groups. Look it up on the web. I'm sure there are a number of methods by which people have managed, if not overcome, ADHD who, for whatever reasons, could not use stimulants.
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