Posted by Angela2 on December 28, 2014, at 18:24:36
In reply to Re: No message ***trigger***? » Angela2, posted by SLS on December 28, 2014, at 7:01:47
Hey Scott. Thanks. I feel like my post yesterday was an incoherent ramble. lol. Christmas was really hard for me this year. I have a lot of family from my mom's side here. And I don' really feel like part of them even though they came over to my parents house, where I live. They took pictures and i wasn't in any of them. Though it's true I spent some of the time upstairs. I saw some of the pics on Facebook and something got triggered in me. I snapped. It was like, wow, I'm really not part of the family and I don't feel loved or cared about or connected to them at all and it sucks and I just want to move across the country. And admitting all of it, it makes me think, man, there really must be something wrong with me. This is not how i wanted my 31 years on this earth to turn out. I've become so isolated. Something i really want to change.
And i don't hate men, lol. But I'm just kind of swimming in pain and painful memories lately.Thank you again. I don't think words can really express how much I appreciate you and everyone reaching out to me. So I just say thank you.
Angela
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