Posted by alexandra_k on October 15, 2013, at 2:41:44
In reply to Re: sorry, posted by alexandra_k on October 14, 2013, at 0:28:12
((((((((alex))))))))
:-)
it will probably be okay.
p-doc has gone to conference. it is probably someplace good because no conference lasts for two weeks.
social worker didn't manage to catch him on Friday (as she thought she would be able to do) - so it isn't at all that he bailed on me.
he wrote some lengthy letter for me to give to my GP apparently (not sure why...) so we have that. and we might be able to get the other doc to fill in the form since she has supported 1 month then 1 month then 3 months of the sickness benefit saying 'need to live alone' each time. and i might be able to get a letter out of psychologist in support if next time i see her i ask if we can focus on finishing up the assessment and i tell her i've come to peace with autistic spectrum and why.
apparently p-doc has requested my file notes and is waiting on them... i was sure he wouldn't have much last time... he is planning on more properly checking. i am remembering stuff now... my plunket book said that i was still being fed by mother and not using a knife and fork and whatever age... i just interpreted it as my mother being over-bearing as always. but maybe... maybe there was more going on. same with her leaving out clothes for me and making me wear those. perhaps it was because there were worse problems if she didn't do that...
maybe she wasn't as overbearing / invasive as i remember her being... maybe it is that i'm weird in needing a lot more space than most. maybe she didn't shut me in my room... so much as i went and hid there all by myself.
:-/
anyway...
saw a consumer advocate person today and my next appointment with work and income will be with her and the regional manager. he's the person who got my letter before about blah...... that ended up resulting in my getting on the sickness benefit in the first place. i think the idea of this... is community support. the idea is... that the more people who feel this is appropriate for me / that i should have this... the more likely it is to go through. the problem is.. the nature of my disorder means i'm not embedded. so.. not properly in the position to ask for help. because.. people don't actually give a sh*t about me asking for help. they give a sh*t about those other people asking for help for me.
ur.
i am cautiously optimistic.
it basically hangs on 'why can you study full time but not do anything else'? because if you are sick enough for the invalids benefit you are meant to be too sick for work or study. that is the point. in my favor i'm currently on the sickness benefit and i'm studying a course at a MUCH higher level than the course i plan to study next year. so... oddly enough... i think this sheldon character on this television show is helping people... they are getting a sense of... i could study or even teach but i can't... do anything else, really. not without melting down. i think... they do get that. and... they are sort of empathetic about it. maybe it is the relationships thing... realizing that i probably won't get lonely living all by myself. that i won't get married or be in a relationship or have kids... all there is is this. i think they will help me.
i find out next monday. best case... the deposit to secure the accommodation goes through then. then i think... it might be possible i can move outta here in a couple weeks. into other uni accom (cheap summer rates) even if not the actual place i'll get to stay in for next year...
i'm...
fragile. scared. but cautiously optimistic.
i'm okay.
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