Posted by Deneb on October 25, 2010, at 0:11:27
In reply to Re: I'm so confused and scared » Glydin50, posted by Deneb on October 24, 2010, at 21:55:36
I failed again today. I ate 2 slices of pumpkin pie and some rice vermicelli noodle stir fry. Each slice of pie was probably over 500 kcal. I didn't drink any coffee at all. The pumpkin pie was entirely my fault. My Mom pushed the rice vermicelli on me. I feel disgusting.
No one can push any food on me! I don't have to eat anything I don't want to. I must understand that. I can control what goes into my body.
I will do better tomorrow.
I should remember to take my meds, especially the prozac, as it has appetite supressing properties. I don't know about the other meds though. I think they make you eat more, but I am stuck on them for now as I know I will get awful withdrawal if I don't take them.
I can't wait until I am really thin. I want to see a space between my thighs. I want to see my ribs and collar bones. I want to be so thin that a doctor can feel all my organs.
I hate my fat! I'm so disgusting! I can't stand it. I need to stop eating.
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