Posted by Fivefires on January 7, 2008, at 16:06:14
In reply to I REALLY need your help...almost suicidal (**trigg, posted by Jay_BrAvEsT_FaCe on January 6, 2008, at 20:52:20
I've had rejection after rejection in one form or another fly at me for a few months now. About a week ago I finished either 'another nervous system breakdown' or 'major depressive episode'; no one knows what is going on with me .. no one really seems to care to delve into it, so I'm not sure what to call it. My body gave out. I couldn't do anything but lie in bed and have bad thoughts, eat a little. I've pulled out of it a bit now, but I think that was thanks to an increase in my anti-anxiety medication Jay. I'm not sure I'm on the right one; something to talk to Pdoc wen see again. I thought if anything ever happened to my Dad, I'd lose it. He's been gone since 2004 and I'm still here. Oddest thing; don't look at clock often, but when do, have seen 11:11 many, many times. Think he's telling me to hang on. So that's what I'm doing. I too don't have any real IL friends. The loneliness is bone-chilling I know. I understand so well how you feel. I don't own anything or have a permanent sig-other. People are getting sick of me being sick, but that's ignorance. Stay w/ us Jay.
sincerely, 5f
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