Posted by Lindenblüte on November 15, 2006, at 22:19:42 [reposted on November 18, 2006, at 16:38:49 | original URL]
In reply to Re: just need to talk » B2chica, posted by Lost Soul on November 15, 2006, at 15:33:04
> Sorry this is so long. I know I should post this on the other site, but you really sounded like you might understand and can possibly help me understand? I want to try to understand why all of this is bothering me now. I want to understand the fuzzy dark incomplete memories that float around in my head like little bubbles - too close of an inspection might cause them to pop and disappear.
It's okay Lost Soul-
Since you *did* post here, I'm going to give you some advice to find a doctor who can help you figure out if there is a medicine that will help make your life more manageable in the midst of some fairly intense memory flashbacks.I LOVE your description of bubbles popping. I'm so glad i'm not the only one who has that feeling. You know, the fact that these bubbles are surfacing from the depths might be a message to you. It might be a sign that you are ready to start working on some of these deep tragedies of your childhood. No child, no person should be treated as you were treated. Bubbles mean that you have stirred something up. Something that's been fermenting in the murky depths. Don't worry if it doesn't feel "real". It may never feel real. But you can try and put the pieces together. I think you are brave enough.
I had some pharmacological help during this process of self-discovery. I had to make sure that the surfacing bubbles didn't capsize my ship. I was suicidally depressed, and so I had to get out of THAT. My first experience with therapy and meds were about 6 mos ago. Then the feelings started. Feelings brought memories, and memories brought more feelings, and the terror and anxiety were nearly unbearable. I got more pharmacological intervention at this point, switched T's to a therapist that would help me deal long-term with these issues.
I know it's tough being a single mom. It's REALLY tough to be a single mom who's not supported. Finding a therapist, even if it's only one hour a week, can help you be a better mom for your kids. It's not a selfish thing at all. If you had been deprived of a vitamin as a child, and grew up with a weak skeleton and needed 1 hour of physical therapy a week-- would you feel bad about it? Well?
Anyways, signs that you might need medicines to help you out are when you are having a lot of cognitive problems (can't remember phone numbers, forgetting to run errands) insomnia, trouble with your appetite, too much sleep, change in how much energy you have, thoughts of death or suicide, thoughts of harming others.
I think you'll find that medication and therapy can really improve your life, and help you make the most out of every day you have earned the right to enjoy.
best wishes,
-Lip.s.
I take anti-depressant cymbalta
I take a sedative and anti-bad-thought medicine seroquel
I take an anti-napping medicine provigil
sometimes I take an anti panic medicine klonopin(((((hugs for you)))))
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