Posted by rubenstein on July 8, 2006, at 13:54:09
In reply to My first padded cell, posted by tofuemmy on July 8, 2006, at 13:27:14
>THat must have been really traumatic. My trip to the hospital was and I was never in a padded cell. I hope you are recovering. Take care. I wish I had more words to say.
rachel
Ever been in one? I have, quite recently. It was pale yellow, rather filthy looking. When I first got walked in, there wasn't even a bed. Just four yellow stained walls. They were marked up and carved into. One area seemed to have been pee'd upon.
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> There was a camera on the wall, up high in the corner. I wondered what would happen if I stood under it so they couldn't see me. The video monitors were out in the hallway. Anyone walking by could see me in that tiny hospital gown, caged.
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> Eventually they brought in a bed. But somewhere inside I had the thought that if I sat on it, then I'd really be a psych patient. If I stayed standing, I'd still be OK. So I stood. And paced. And leaned against the filthy wall. After a few hours, I relented and climbed into the bed, trying to keep myself covered with that slutty little gown.
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> How did I get here? Me? Holy cr*p. It's come to this? I couldn't stop shaking my head in amazement at my predicament.
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> How do we encorporate this sort of experience into our lives? How do we change the definition of who we are? Now I am someone who gets locked up. I'm struggling to process all of this.
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> Em
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