Posted by snapper on June 24, 2006, at 4:07:41
sorry guys....the more I drink and listen to this music that I "must" listen to...brings about more tears and thoughts ...and of course more words. If anyof you happen to read this and reply and I don't reply ---I am not-un-appreciative..it is just that I am Sad and I know all of you will hopefully understand ..(hopefully)---------Sometimes .......I guess it is good..or even OK to cry! God I really could use a GREAT friends shoulders or arms to cry into or with. Everyday I get up I am tense and scared and yet somehow sickly hopeful of the day being different . Honestly I could use a big hug and a big sincere Kiss but I don't see those coming anytime soon. I am not an Ugly guy but this illness...coupled with no job, no income(other than SSI) no car and nop life plan at 39 does not neccessarily excite the ladies on Yahoo Personals. I usually don't even let any contacts know about my illness or what ever until I am sure that they might be interested...but GOD.sometimes they all seem compared to me and my current life situation, have thier lives and s**t together. Who is gonna want a former self-employed business owner with Bipolar Disorder/ Anxiety/ Social Phobia and No car and no steady income kind of guy to snuggle up to? ............ sad ...but maybe true... I really am a GREAT GUY, but my brain just does not work right....sad but true most don't know that we that struggle are not bad or evil, or mal-aligned-......ok...so thanks for listening and reading part II
Clint
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thread:660864
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