Posted by naughtypuppy on March 18, 2006, at 10:01:27
In reply to Re: My childhood panic attacks » naughtypuppy, posted by Deneb on March 17, 2006, at 20:26:37
> > I still get panic attacks when I am around wasps or in high places.
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> My trigger when I was little was strong wind. I used to fear going outside because of the wind.
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I dont really have an associated trigger, just when I get in these situations. Still doesn't explain the social anxiety though.> > Don't mention disassociation when your a kid whatever you do, they put me on anti-psycotics. What a rotten thing to do to a miserable unhappy child.
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> I didn't know what derealization was back then and I don't think I would have had the vocabulary to describe what I was going through when I was younger.
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> What happened with you and anti-psychotics?
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> Deneb*
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>My pdoc at the time must have felt that I was displaying abnormal behavior when I told him that sometimes I felt that perhaps all the other people in the world where unreal and I was the only one that really existed. Is that really all that abnormal for a 13 year old? It is sort of like finding things in cloud formations, just an active imagination. Anyway, he put me on Haloperidol, which made me feel so hyper that I wanted to crawl out of my skin. He didn’t seem particularly interested that his theory wasn’t working out as he planned and his medication was having the opposite effect. I also ODed on it and took about a dozen pills. BIG MISTAKE!!! The muscles at the back of my neck contracted to the point of breaking. I still have neck problems there to this day. To make a long story short, I went untreated for many years and toughed it out by myself until, as a result of a stressful job and a sadistic boss, I sunk into a deep depression and have been on the medication merry go round ever since.
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