Posted by Tenifer on August 31, 2005, at 11:53:30 [reposted on September 2, 2005, at 20:15:58 | original URL]
In reply to I think I should just go buy a gun, posted by jerrympls on August 26, 2005, at 16:08:42
Jerry,
I don't know what words I can say to help you in this moment of your life. I feel for you and as I write this I can feel myself starting to cry. I know the pain you are feeling and I feel it with you.
Whenever I stare into that abyss and wonder if its worth going on I insist to myself that somehow, things will get better. Maybe not all of a sudden but they will, a little at a time. Sometimes the little is imperceptible but it is happening.
My faith in God and knowing that He is present with me in my trials gives me the strength to go on. If could handle yesterday I can handle today and then tomorrow. He gives us the strength we need when we need it. I have counted on that grace and I have never been let down by Jesus. During my darkest moments I would sit in my back yard and hold a small cricifix in my hand and imagine Jesus walking towards me and sitting beside me. It was comforting to me and still is. He is real.
As I continue my journey I have come to understand that recovery isn't a straight line. There are ups and downs and sometimes the down periods can seem to last forever. The improtant thing to keep reminding yourself of is that the up times WILL come back. Hold onto that hope and your faith and you will see tomorrow and beyond.
May God Bless you Jerry and hold you as you journey through your life.
David
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