Posted by KaraS on March 4, 2005, at 21:41:59
In reply to Dread and procrastination, posted by All Done on March 4, 2005, at 16:03:03
> Why do I dread just about everything? I understand why I dread things I don’t really want to do, but I constantly find myself dreading and subsequently procrastinating about things I like to do.
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> Tomorrow, I’m going to a spa with my best friend since freshman year of high school to have 90 minute massages. Then, we are going to shop and I’m taking her to a restaurant we both love for her birthday. I know once I get there, I’m going to have a great time, but right now, I feel like I want to cancel.
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> I think in a way this happens with sleep for me, too. I’ve always loved to sleep long hours whenever I had the chance. It’s one of my favorite pastimes ;). For some reason, though, I’ve always been a night owl. Even when I was a kid, my mom would tell me as long as I was in my bedroom and quiet, I didn’t have a set bedtime. So, I stayed up until all hours of the night reading. It worked okay then because I would “catch up” with my sleep on the weekends when I could barely be dragged out of bed. Now, I stay up late doing a whole lot of nothing, but I don’t have the luxury of sleeping all weekend anymore. I can usually cope with the lack of sleep, but every once in a while it really catches up with me. This is so strange to me because I love the feeling of crawling under the covers and falling asleep. It’s never been difficult for me to fall asleep. So, why can’t I get myself to the bed even when I’m utterly exhausted?
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> There are two things I never dread. Picking up my son from daycare and going to therapy.
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> Any thoughts or suggestions would be appreciated :).
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> Laurie
Yeah, I dread almost everything too. (Getting on the computer is one of the few things I don't dread so I often find refuge here.) It's definitely related to depression. I think anxiety plays into it in my case as well because I worry about what could come up that I'd have to deal with. It's a subtle kind of a worrying though. It's more like I just don't have the energy to deal with whatever might come up.I'm a nightowl as well. If you're like me, you are at your least depressed in the evening. That's when I have the most energy and motivation. Since I've just started to feel semi-alive, I don't want to go to sleep. I haven't found the cure for this yet. I suppose if I got to the point where I couldn't wait to get up in the morning, then maybe I'd be more inclined to go to sleep at night at a decent hour.
Anyway, not much in the way of advice here but at least you know you're not alone. Enjoy your day with your friend!
Kara
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