Posted by smokeymadison on January 21, 2005, at 22:43:30
just wondering. because:
Sat: none
Mon: 3 hours
Tues: 3 hours
Wed: none
Thurs: 5 hours
tonight: ???i am off of all my meds until tomorrow, and only then if the pregnancy test is not positive. i have severe anxiety (had a panic attack Thurs night). I heard a story about a radio annoucer who hallucinated and went psychotic when he didn't sleep for a week. i am wondering if it is a true story. he had permant terrible changes in his personality after that. maybe it is an urban myth, maybe not.
i have been in outpatient therapy for two days now and love it. but i am not thinking very clearly right now. it is hard to get the most out of it. i can't wait to get back to my meds if i am not pregnant. i take the test tomorrow. if i am i have to have an indepth discusion w/ the pdoc overseeing my outpatient therapy on Monday. because i have to be on something, i think. i really can't take this right now.
all my perfectionistic tendencies are coming back in full-blown form.
i have worked on my anger at my boyfriend the past two days and am not angry for the first time in a while. i am all about him right now. feeling in love, etc. i haven't felt this way for a while. it is very nice. but i should go lay down and try to sleep now. not sure if i am able. i certainly don't feel like it!
SM
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