Posted by Indie on July 20, 2004, at 15:33:26
In reply to Re: I am sad.... » Indie, posted by partlycloudy on July 20, 2004, at 14:51:31
Wow. No relationships with ex-significant others?? Really?
Want some of mine?? I think that if I counted right now that more of my close friends are ex-lovers of one sort or another than not. Out of all of the relationships in my life, I am still friends with all except the one who killed himself, the one who stole $3000 from me and the one that is wanted by the FBI. There have only been two though that I REALLY loved. Loved with all of my heart, body and soul. The first now has a beautiful wife and a darling son the same age as my nephew. That one was hard...it only took me about 5 years to get over it...but we never really "broke up". He joined the Peace Corps and moved to Africa...I didn't see him for 3 years. I got over it the day I met his now wife. I just saw that he had met his soul mate and it was all OK. I am Auntie to his son and a friend to his wife. Of course with him I had to remain friends...I was just too close to his family and friends not to be.This one is still just too raw and I don't think I am strong enough to be his friend. I just can't stand to be around him and not touch. We always held hands, kissed in public, touched feet under the dinner table, slept curled up together.... We communicated very well physically...it was only when we needed to communicate through words on serious matters that it all fell apart....
So we are friends in theory, but I just cannot bear to learn to be "just friends". I think I will choose to keep him in my memory and not in my life...Sad. We were friends long before we were lovers, but I just don't think that I can do it.
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