Posted by Cass on July 17, 2004, at 12:34:18
In reply to Re: Feeling calm as closer I get to suicide » Cass, posted by corafree on July 16, 2004, at 11:43:57
Hi Cora,
I'm so sorry you lost your father. How are you doing with the grief? I'm so glad you have your daughter's support. Don't think of yourself as a burden. If she is your best friend, she must love you very much.
The "accident" at the hands of your ex-husband sounds ominous. I'm so sorry! You've sure been through hell. Have you ever thought of suing your ex for the damage he's done to you? Certainly your pain and medical bills deserve some compensation from him. I'm not a very litigious person, but I really think that damaging discs in your cervical spine shouldn't go unpunished! Argh!
I have rheumatoid arthritis and fibro in my bag of medical problems, but I also have Lupus. I can really sympathize with you. I know what you mean about memory. My memory is very sketchy. I find it embarrassing. What is the shaking due to? Fibromyalgia? Anxiety? Pain? I tend to shake when my anxiety is high. I have seen a lot of improvement in my symptoms by becoming a vegetarian. I removed almost all dairy, grains and meat from my diet and eating raw fruits and vegetables, seeds and nuts. The resulting weightloss helped me in itself, but my symptoms also got quite a bit better. I am in no way cured, but things are looking up. I also started exercising doing very low impact things, like taking walks and jumping on a rebounder (can hurt the knees a little if I jump too long.) I do a little yoga too. I recently stopped exercising because of an injury, but now that I am healing, I'm going to start again. Jumping on the rebounder was really helping my fibro!
It was sort of surreal seeing that old thread of mine including "the memorial" pop up. I reread that thread. It was the new Cass meeting the old Cass, and I'm so glad my life has improved. Now the frame of mind I was in then seems very far away and distant. The issues are still real, but they are not nearly as magnified.
You'll also be happy soon, and all of this will be a distant memory. Thank YOU for touching bases with me. Let's keep talking.
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