Posted by Elle2021 on July 15, 2004, at 2:20:04
In reply to Re: i'm still here dear.. » Elle2021, posted by Corafree on July 14, 2004, at 12:31:32
That is good that the Effexor seems to be helping a bit. I agree with you, I think good can conquer evil. I'm glad that you don't abuse medication or alcohol. That type of thing can make psychiatric problems 10x worse. You mentioned that you had already written a will. That part of your post worries me. Is it a possibility for you to contact your therapist and talk about your feelings on this? You know if you go through with suicide, your daughter will miss you terribly. And, I already like you, so I will miss you too. You're open and honest, and I like that. So tell me about your day. :)
Elle> Thank you. Every little message like this gives me more hope. I have written my 'will' of sort and given it to my daughter. I don't intend, but I just have fears and don't want to leave my children with the burden of an elderly emotional broken mother, ya know? Today I have hope. I am doing well on Effexor-XR 75mg am and 37.5mg about five hours later in the day, and then trazodone for sleep. Fears are about docs taking away anxiety med and pain med. I'd be bedridden. Everyday I have hope is a good day. I wonder so often about the spirituality of suicide. Good can conquer evil, I think. I feel I've been short-changed too long a length of time of the 'good' and that's when I consider suicide. I pray. I don't abuse alcohol or meds. I'm no angel, but I really wonder - if your life doesn't give you a break, maybe you are called upon to give yourself a break?
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