Posted by Indie on July 14, 2004, at 11:01:57
In reply to Re: New member needing support. LONG story., posted by tabitha on July 14, 2004, at 2:28:21
Sounds like we have some things in common. I hope that we can support one another here and get past some of the bad times.
Can I ask you how you deal with your mothers suicide? My father killed himself 7 years ago and I still haven't figured out a way to find peace. I often feel that I am at peace with it but then the grief and confusion and anger all wash over me again. I was decidedly a "daddy's girl" and his choice to leave me here is more than I can bear. Last week I went to my sister's house to spend time with her and her new son (the light of my life these days) and she had a picture out of my parents and I at my graduation. This sparked the grief all over again...the day that picture was taken was the last time I saw him. It nearly drives me crazy when the grief washes over me like a thick tar. The phrase "self inflicted gunshot wound to the head" plays over and over in my head. It is sick...it is soooo clinical to think of it that way but I can't get it out of my head. I talked to my sister about it and she has a similar experience but her phrase is "my dad blew his brains out". Do you have any experiences like this?? Do you have a method of dealing with it??
Sorry to speak of such a gruesome topic but I am curious of how others cope with such a dreadful experience.
Indie
> Hi. I read your story, all the way to the end. I wish I had an answer for you. I hate the ups and downs, and the feeling of being stuck and not having enough control to prod myself forward. I'm also diagnosed BPII and have a parent who suicided when I was in my 30s. I got a lot of mileage out of my determination not to repeat her fate.
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> Welcome to Babble and thanks for sharing your history with us.
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