Posted by SandyWeb on May 22, 2004, at 10:07:27
In reply to RE::: Sandy, posted by mystic on May 21, 2004, at 19:52:50
Hi mystic,
I'm sorry that you have experienced, and still are in the throes, of some difficult situations. It's good not to lead a sheltered life, but sometimes it gets rather unbearable, huh? You're a strong lady! (((Mystic)))
Yes, I have had wonderful angels helping me through this process. Jlynne and LynneDa have been unbelieveable!! I have no idea why they focused their energies on me, especially when you can find countless other people on Babble who could benefit from their support. But I'm really grateful they have been here for me. It is MY choice as to who I will open up to, and I think that I probably trusted them the most.
And then there are the cops. Who'd a thunk?? Lol. Those two particular cops. I think my guard dropped a little with those two simply because of the way they treated me as an equal...like a FRIEND...during the time we spent at the hospital. I mean, they got personal with me....told me about their families, interests, childhood....which is not what really is expected from a "Professional" relationship. I felt like they accepted me...and I was so impressed with their seeming friendship with each other. And then they kept in touch with me! How incredible is that? They are good guys. They have wonderful souls. I was blessed to have them respond to the call. The thought of them sometimes is all that kept me from going over the edge from time to time.
And then we have Dr. Bob. Lol! What to say about THAT man?? Hee hee. Sometimes I was upset with him, sometimes I was secretly relieved by his actions, sometimes I was confused by him. He made me cry, he made me smile, he made me PARANOID! LOL!!! He put me through a rigorous course. But...all in all...he has a good heart and a precious soul. I think he honestly has an interest in others. I think he is as he allows us to see him. I don't think he's a phoney. He's certainly not the perfect man (Darn! Ha!) and he makes some error in judgments, but I believe that he does not do anything for an ego boost or for a power trip. I think he's genuine. And I appreciate the time and energy he has taken to look over my shoulder from time to time. Then again, like I said before, it is ME who decides who I want to open up to...and all the interventions in the world will not be helpful if I do not want to talk with someone. I think the time for talking has ended anyways. I don't think there is anyone that I'd open up to now and TRY to reveal what is happening inside of me. It's my own little world, my own little pain....and you just can't know. And maybe I don't want you to know.
Let's see...there are so many people that stood by me. You and Simus, for instance. And Lonelygirl, op (from Open), partlycloudy...oh, and I'm sure that I'm missing other important people. But every one of you has provided me with your strength when I didn't have any of my own. And sometimes that was all that I needed.
In other news (lol!), the standoff ended last night after 67 hours! The grandmother died. But the mum, dad, and baby are fine. Of course, they will never be seeing that baby again...and that is the saddest thing. The cops are having a difficult time about the grandmother. It's a hard time for them.
Gotta scat.
Hugs,
Sandra
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