Posted by karen_kay on April 23, 2004, at 14:24:53
In reply to Fridays are supposed to be happy days, posted by All Done on April 23, 2004, at 12:11:44
Start the countdown.... (and sorry, but today is ALL ABOUT KK!!!!!)
10. i wore a suit today. i gave a presentation. upon arrival, i found that the other members of my group were wearing golf shirts and khakis. i was thrilled!!! i kept my jacket on. all eyes were on me. the presentation was supposed to be 15 minutes. ours was 20. i talked for 15 of that 20. i was spectacular. and on my walk home, everyone smiled at me. today, i was important. today, i looked fabulous. today, i was a star, and saved everyone else's grade. today, i not only pulled through, but i SHINED!!!! today is a great day. i'm still wearing my suit. perhaps i'll walk my dog it in?
9. i smell wonderful. not because i took a shower. or just because i'm wearing perfume. it's because someone i adore gave me perfume. and because of that, it smells even better. when you receive a gift from someone you are absolutely smitten with, it makes that gift even better. so, even though i own this particular fragrance, i prefer to wear the gift. and when i wear it, it makes me a rock star.... the gift someone gave me makes me feel even more special when i'm wearing it. i'll try to save it for special occasions when i need an added boost of confidence and reassurance that i'm special, but i don't think i can. i'll just have to wear it every day, and hope when the gift is gone, that thought has been implanted in my head... it's an experiment, almost similar to therapy. i'll see if it works... i'm certain it will. i have that positive attitude, you know.
8. i looked at my planner and i have absolutely, positively NOTHING due for a whole week straight!!!! oh good lord, can it be true? a whole week of sitting on my butt and posting to babble? forget that finals are the next week, i'll leave that worry for another day. right now i'll bask in the glory that i have a full week to myself, with no projects, or proposals, or papers, or meetings.. nothing, nothing, nothing!!!!! wonderful. spendid. heaven!
7. i've been able to learn so much from my classes. not just about english and the proper way to construct a memo. or the laws involved with journalists and how to avoid a lawsuit. but, i've learned how to not take no as an answer. and i've learned that professors can teach lessons about life, while teaching lessons regarding professions. if you listen closely to what people say, there are double meanings involved. that's what is so very nice about listening. i've recently learned that when i talk to people and listen, really listen, so much of what they tell me applies to my life as well. and it really applies to what is going on in my life currently. just the other day, one professor said, 'i don't care what grade you get in this class. what i care about is the fact that you can take what you learn here and apply it to your life. and i don't mean if you are sued. get a lawyer for that. i mean that you take the knowledge from this course and learn to question things. and learn not to take no for an answer. and learn that as a person, you are entitled to certain rights. take that knowledge from here, and use it everyday." it made me think. i'm not in school to just get a degree. i'm in school to learn. not just about laws, or art, or memorization. i'm here to learn.... about people, and how to live my life right. hopefully, i'll find that out. i'm on the right path. and that makes me happy.... today, i am happy.
6. i now (think i) know it's ok to think about myself while thinking about others. you know, when i drive down the street and i smell something burning, my first thought is 'i hope that's not my car.' and i feel bad because if it's not my car, it must be someone else's. and i used to think my first thought should be, 'i wish that smell wasn't there.' i think i now know that it's ok not to wish it wasn't my car burning oil. it's ok to not want bad things to happen to me, because while i think that, i'm also thinking i hope bad things don't happen to others as well. i've realized that i don't want bad things for anyone. and that's a good thing. it's good that i don't want bad things for both myself or anyone is a wonderful thing. i'm a wonderful person. i really am! and i don't want oil to burn on anyone's car, ever again... but, oh, those poor mechanics... dear god, see, i overanalyze everything,.... ok, scrap this one... let me do another one..,.
6b. i just don't want bad things for anyone. and thinking that i don't want bad things for anyone is a wonderful trait to have. but, i also know that bad things are going to happen. so, i hope that when bad things do happen to everyone, we can all learn from them. and grow stronger from them. and become even more beautiful people from them.
6c. ok, i'll redo this one and hope to have a beautiful one, ok???? i'm resourceful.. take for instance, the fact that when i'm out of smokes, i have the ability to call a take out place and have them deliver me not only food, but also stop at a gas station and bring me a pack of smokes as well. how's that for being resourceful? i'm considering doing that now.... lazy, lazy you say? i'm just strapped for cash and have my old man's credit card number. and yes, i will tip very very well.... is that a bad quallity, you think? no, not at all. i have received the honors of being the friendliest girl in the drivethrough you know.... i'm very friendly to everyone, so they don't mind doing things for me. see, it all pays off.
5. good, finally out of the number 6. it was starting to scare me.....
i have a wonderbra. though i have no breasts, i appear to have some. they don't call it a WONDERbra for nothin. so, i'm concerned about 'false' advertising, however most people need not worry, as they won't see my breasts unclothed anyway. but, when i but my wonderbra on, i feel different. i keep looking in the mirror and it seems strange to se kk with breasts. my other concern is that when i don't wear my wonderbra, people who see me may think 'why is it that one day she has breasts, and the other day she doesn't?' hmmmm... i have two bras that give me breasts and several that kinda give me breasts, and a few that don't. perhaps i should only wear the two bras that give me breasts> or, perhaps i should only wear the bras that give me breasts when i am very concerned about having breasts, such as ocassions when i am in contact with people who i may be attracted to? perhaps i should not be so concerned with my breasts? HA! everyone should be concerned with their breasts. it's ok for me to be concerned with my breasts, as i am concerned with other's breasts as well!!!!
4. i'm giggly. and i'm feeling wonderful. and i'm in on heck of a mood. and i'm almost done with this semester. and i'm changing as a person, with results that i can actually see. that's honestly the best part. and i have such beautiful and amazing people around me who keep telling me that i'm great. and it's starting to sink in. i'm starting to believe it. not just starting to believe it, i'm honestly starting to feel it. those amazing people are so very beautiful to tell me such great things aobut myself and make me believe them. i'll do great things one day, and it will be ALL THEIR FAULT!!!!
3. i have the lovliest dog in the world. he's so beautiful that i can stare at him for hours. and sometimes when i have to make him get off the couch so i can lie down, i feel bad for making him move. my dog is so beautiful. and he thinks i'm great. i know i'm great. but, he reinforces the fact that i'm great. one day, i'll be the person he thinks i am too. and he's not dumb, he's just shallow and self-involved. i would be too, if i were that beautiful.... well, i am that beautiful. but, i have other things to think about than bugs, and horse meat, and scooby snacks, and the mail carrier (ok, so i think about her), and my next toilet water fiasco, and the park....
2. i took the shuttle today. and i told the guy next to me, 'i feel like i'm in a big city when i take the shuttle.' he laughed. we talked about our major. we have the same major. he's getting screwed by his advisor, because he works in a radio station and can't get into a 100 level class that he must take to start taking his regular classes. he's a transfer student too. he liked his other university better. i learned alot about him. i told him to stomp on his advisor's toes to get into that class. i tld him that class is offered in the summer and he think he could do it then. i think i'll start taking the shuttle more often. you can meet some pretty amazing people there. plus, i still feel like i'm in a big city when i take it. perhaps i can pretend i'm in cali, or montana?
1. i looked at myself in the mirror today. i was trying on several (oh good grief, you have no idea the process i went through to get ready for this stupid proposal!!!! a whole hour just trying on clothes!) outfits to find the right one. but, when i looked in the mirro, i saw a very pretty woman... yes WOMAN. not child, not girl, WOMAN. i need to stop thinking i'm a child. but, back to my original point, i noticed that i'm very pretty. and though everyone has their hang-ups, things we don't like about our appearance, i noticed that i think i can live with them. and not only can i live with them, they add character to me. they give me personality. so, i have small breasts. i can wear a wonderbra if i don't like it. but, more importantly, i can accept it. and i can laugh about it. and i can realize that on my bad days, i can cry about it if i have to (not necessarily my small breast, but things that have happened). and i can learn from it. and i can know that it has changed me. but, i can also know that it has changed me for the better.
for me personally, the things that have happened hvae changed me, and shaped me to be a better person. they've changed my outlook on life, and my outlook on myself. i can cry about them when i need to, and i can talk to people aobut them when i need to, and i can ignore them when i need to. but, i can't change them. i can only accept them, and choose to view the world differently because of what has happened. and i prefer to viewthe world as a positive place. with wonderful people. and sometimes people make mistakes. and sometimes i make mistakes. and sometimes it hurts, sometimes more than others. but, i learn from that. i strive to learn from that. and my view is constantly changing. but, i hopeto always keep my positive outlook on people and events. that's the best i can do. i'm not defined by circumstances. i choose to be defined by how i react to them.... and i think i'm doing a fine job right now.
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