Posted by jlynne on April 11, 2004, at 21:06:39
In reply to RE:: Sandy, posted by SandyWeb on April 10, 2004, at 20:37:24
>I get lost, I forget where I'm going or even why I'm going there, I feel nauseous, my head won't stop with the maracas, and I still can't understand what is being said and I quite frequently will begin to say something but I can't get through the darn sentence....so I just garble the rest.
>Hi, Sandy:~) I hope you are having a nice, peaceful Easter.
It has been many years since I was hospitalized, but I do remember having a terrible time functioning mentally. One of the worst parts for me was making decisions - - FORGET IT - - couldn't do it. I also found myself crying one minute, laughing the next, then sometimes locking myself in my room, to protect my kids.
And my kids grew up thinking it was normal to walk through a grocery store, fill up the shopping cart with groceries, and then end up having to leave the store without the groceries because I couldn't keep it together long enough to go through the check out line.
I'm sure that part of what you are going through is withdrawal from your meds, but your brain has been doing flip-flops trying to keep up with your emotions, too. Your body has been producing its own little pharmaceuticals in an attempt to protect you from the stress you have been experiencing. You just have to take it slowly, and give your body and mind time to heal.
What helped me the most, I think, was talking to my T and learning about my illness. I also did a great deal of writing - - whatever came into my head; thoughts, memories, feelings [MOSTLY feelings].
But you know what? After surviving that experience, I can now honestly say that I am capable of facing anything . . . because I have already been through hell! And now you can say that, too, because we are going to help you through it . . . and you are going to come out stronger than you ever thought you could be.
The human spirit is an amazing thing, Sandy, and yours is ready to heal and to grow. The scars are what character and humility are built upon.
God bless you on this special day.
((((Sandy)))) ((((HUGS))))
...jlynne
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