Posted by SandyWeb on March 29, 2004, at 17:48:27
In reply to Re: Help Me » SandyWeb, posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 17:39:50
Thanks for the suggestion, but I don't know my neighbors. We live in an apartment complex. Besides, I could walk to the hospital from here. It's probably only 10 minutes away.
But what if the hospital treats me the same way as the cop? I really, really could not handle more rejection right now. All I want to do is cut up my wrist and cry.
And I shouldn't even post this.
I am humiliated that these two cops are driving around talking bad about me. That they have this horrible impression of me. That they think of me as a joke. That I'm totally useless and worthless to them. Just like hubby, I'm just something to rub the filth off their feet on.
I feel really bad. I want to stop feeling this way. I've had enough of all this. I am so TIRED of always losing. I try and I try.....and I seem to always come up the loser.
Why did this have to happen today? I was ready to accept someone's help....if only they had been nice. Now I'm scared to trust the hospital. I just can't deal with that.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
Sandy
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