Posted by rainyday on March 29, 2004, at 8:40:13
In reply to Re: Is a little bit depressed good for you? (Long), posted by justyourlaugh on March 29, 2004, at 8:30:30
> rainy,
> i try everyday not to be my mother..
> for me i need to give myself permission to feel possitive about myself because i didnt get them from my mother who claimed to be my "best friend".
> rainy ,
> you already are all the wonderful things you want to be..
> be good to yourself and feel them too..
> jylBut I don't believe I am worth being good to. I believe that I'm not smart and witty enough, I'm not deserving of love and admiration. I truly feel that this life I have is a sham, that I have conned my way into jobs I am underqualifed for (and then failed at), that I conned into an 18-year marriage that failed, that this depression is the "real" me, and that treating it medically just shoves it under. I am terrified that the 2 year marriage I am in now will crumble under the weight of my undeservedness. That the scales will fall from my husband's eyes eventually.
poster:rainyday
thread:329754
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