Posted by jlynne on March 17, 2004, at 1:02:51
In reply to jlynne have a blast, posted by Magdalena on March 16, 2004, at 19:05:56
Hi, Magdalena. Had a good time with my son - my older daughter and two grandsons (hers) were there,too. (I have three children, ages 32, 34 &35.) My younger daughter, who lives in the same town as I do, couldn't make it tonight. (I have a story about OCD and my younger daughter that I think Mrs. C will be interested in - you can read my post to her tonight:)
When I talk about dissociation, it is a way of separating myself from unpleasant situations. [This part is hard for me to say, but I will say it and get it over with . . . I was sexually abused by my father when I was very small, and that is when it started]
When I feel threatened emotionally, I sometimes flee to a place inside myself where no one can reach me. I do experience the feelings that you mentioned sometimes - the slow motion, the sinking feeling - but mostly I am in a trance and feel nothing; sometimes I am able to imagine myself in another place, or doing something different.
When I start returning, I sometimes feel disoriented and numb; when that happens, it sometimes takes days to come all the way out of it. But sometimes I just feel angry - when that happens (the anger) it is probably during a time when I am feeling stronger. Sometimes I am just glad that it is over (the unpleasant or threatening situation).
I don't do this nearly as often as I used to, and it is usually on a smaller scale now. I think what you described sounds like it could be a form of dissociation. Can you think of something that triggers it in you? What happens to your anxiety at the time? When did it start happening to you? What do feel during those times? Does it affect your ability to function?
Nothing like putting an anxious person on the spot, eh? Sorry. You don't have to answer - just some things to consider, if you like.
I hope you get some good, restful sleep tonight. Tomorrow can wait for us, yeah? ...jlynne
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