Posted by 8 Miles on January 28, 2004, at 18:55:02
In reply to Re: I think I need help, fast., posted by daydreamer on January 28, 2004, at 11:28:47
OK, that's a start, you recognize that you have some periodic suicidal ideation. But you really haven't spoken about what the source is, or why it affects you so. You said all you could think about was your father. Was that positive or negative thought? That, since it came out of the blue, seems to me to be a significant issue that needs exploration with you AND a counselor. You don't necessarily have to mention that you were trying to "off yourself", but the issue definitely needs some attention. You did not respond about you and your partner's relationship, and perhaps how your father plays into it. It's OK if you DON'T wish to discuss it openly at this time. However, I have to tell you honestly, that when you mentioned that all you could think about was your father, a bell went off inside my head. That may very well be the trigger point for you. W/O knowing more, all I can do is speculate, which isn't really too helpful. If/when you wish to discuss some detail about you life's journey, then we will be better able to respond to your needs with more educated answers. All I know for sure is that suicidal ideation cannot go on unresolved. It doesn't do ANYBODY any good, and it is a viscious preditor, waiting for the right opportunity. It is a viper, an unsrcupulous, uncaring bast*rd. DON'T let it get a foot into your life! There are SO MANY weapons to fight that beast, but the best one is accountablility to someone. Please do let me know what else you can "see" as you begin to filter through your life. Everthing has a cause and effect. You cannot change the cause of things that have ALREADY happened to you, but you really CAN change the results when you want to.
Good luck, and let us know how we might help you!
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