Posted by Angielala on January 27, 2004, at 12:33:10
In reply to I think I need help, fast., posted by daydreamer on January 27, 2004, at 11:20:55
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> Last night..
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> I lost it.. for the first time in years.
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> I was screaming at my partner while she was out side and I was in the car. I started slamming things- my head-- my fist..
> I couldnt hold it.
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> I sped off.. almost hitting an ambulance and then almost turning over my van.
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> I sped into a parkenlot.. parked it and cried..
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> All of a sudden I reached for a cd-- and broke it in half. I kept slicing it against my wrists... and kept slicing.. and kept slicing.. to the point my wrist was swollen and numb.. and bleeding at random spots..
> But it wouldnt break past the skin into the main vein, and its all I had... I wanted it so badly..
> Now I feel so foolish..
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> I dont want to go to my clinic.. they may see me as a threat to myself.. and lock me up.
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> I dont know what to do..
> I dont feel threatning today..
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> I just started my 2nd pill of Lamictal (50mg) a day about a week and a half ago.
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> I dont know what I feel.
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> What do I do????
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poster:Angielala
thread:306031
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