Posted by zenhussy on January 5, 2004, at 10:37:17
In reply to Re: Zen? » zenhussy, posted by shar on January 3, 2004, at 12:44:05
>Well, laying down couldn't hurt. If you ARE sinking, the question is (as always among us here): how low?
Internally low but externally faded.>Even a little sink is no fun, a dip usually makes every day dark, sliding into the pit results in different things for different folks but often a feeling of hopelessness, exhaustion, paralysis, apathy. And, when a visit to the pit gets extended, it can lead to suicidal ideation or not wanting to go on because it's so painful and there is no medication that seems to make a difference.
Ten years mostly wrestling this beast has left me without much hope when I'm tired of being me. Ya know?
>So, I guess I'm wondering (in the fondest way) how low has it gone?I'm not going to check out like I had thought so brilliantly back in October (it was months off...sheesh! people caring and the like...oh so bothersome). I think meds are doing the largest number on mood lately with this newest stabilizer. Yeah, I'm real stable. (note scathing sarcasm)
>And, this reminds me of the Eskimos/Inuit people who have like 100 words for "snow" and how we at PB have so many descriptive words for being down and getting more down. Words that most of the populace would not understand nor have a clue about.
My Inuit is rusty but I do know of about 34 to 40 different molecular compositions of snow that contribute to avalanches and how well snow will pack together to build a quince or igloo. Proof that a month in the snow will teach you anything to stay warm!
>Take care, wherever you are, and bathe yourself (if you can) in the knowledge that you are important to so many people. You. Plain old you. You are important. You are important to many people. You. You are loved. Hmph! Go figure!!
>Iz true.
>xoxo
>SharOh now stop. Youse gittin on me nerves wit all dis rap about me loved and stuff. Argh!
A most sincere thank you. Thank you very much Shar.
-zh
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