Posted by mair on January 3, 2004, at 23:03:30
In reply to Re: my life feels like a big bad drug side effect » mair, posted by zenhussy on January 3, 2004, at 21:05:11
i think I know some what you're talking about. Years ago I remember this book written by a spy entitled "I led two lives." I think this could describe lots of people with mood disorders. I've been struck on many occasions by the difference between my internal mood and external presentation. Sometimes I think that we expend too much energy trying to look and sound ok - with the result being that our internal resources become pretty depleted AND that our sense of isolation increases.
Don't underestimate the effects of this drug - chances are it is a huge contributor to how rotten you feel right now. I got in a similar bind with serzone a few years ago. Alot of what you're describing hit me. Ultimately I and my pdoc concluded that it wasn't a good drug for me, but while I was still taking it, I discovered that taking it at night instead of during the day, minimized alot of the most bothersome side effects. Maybe there is some adjustment your pdoc could make to ease some of what you're experiencing.
It sucks big time that you have to go through this without knowing that this drug will work for you in the end.
Mair
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