Posted by geri122 on January 2, 2004, at 8:50:32
In reply to Re: Saturday » fallsfall, posted by Bubbaleh on January 2, 2004, at 6:29:58
i will go see a doctor, just not yet, i am not ready yet. i mean i think that i can handel it right now. When, and if i gets to the point then i will be there but right now i need to deal with it. It acually makes me feel stronger to deal with it on my own. When i do overcome those mixed emotiond i can say I did that, i over came that. Yes i know you can do that when you have help, but i am just not ready.
I have these moments, where nothing seems right, all i want to do is crawl into a hole, but look im in that hole, i am still an exictance in the world.
It is a struggle, and it does get hard... and i am afraid, terrified acually. This is all not something i just woke up on. I ahve researched, read books and got first hand information. I know someone that is deppressed. We don't talk much, but she is my age and she told me everything that she goes through. My school, well there aren;t the most understanding people there. We are in high school, rumors and true facts get around quickly. I would go to a doctor, but my parents can't find out and they are always on my case. They must know where i am at all time. I know that that is out of love, but at 16 i can't do anything for myself by myself.
It is hard, but i know that someday i will be able to look in the mirror and say im ok.
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