Posted by Camille Dumont on December 28, 2003, at 16:19:36
In reply to Re: How do you escape this mental trap? » Camille Dumont, posted by deirdrehbrt on December 28, 2003, at 11:03:01
Your post made me think alot. I guess you're right in that they are attractive. Perhaps even moreso because of my academic background and work, I'm an analyst at heart ... I have this need to understand the "how" and "why" of everything.
Its also confusing because I don't know if my thoughts are distorted by the depression or not.
In a way I wouldn't say that I'm in pain per say. Its more like a general non-happyness and non-sadness. Hopefully the former range of feelings will come back. I think its worse not to feel anything than to feel pain and joy in alternance.
In the end I think that perhaps live has no goal because the goal IS life ... that perhaps the fullfillment will come from the process (i.e. doing things) itself. But on the other hand, it seems futile to me to sort of "distract" yourself from important questions ... in a way playing blind.
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