Posted by kara lynne on September 15, 2003, at 12:27:54
In reply to Re: I feel like I want to die without him. octopus, posted by octopusprime on September 15, 2003, at 10:45:35
Dear octopus,
You bring up a quality so foreign to me right now--dignity. It's a good quality even just to think about. How would a woman with dignity handle herself in this situation? Most likely she wouldn't call her ex at 2:30am begging for him to love her.I am riddled with doubt right now. I can't see the forest for the trees. I thought I knew he wasn't good for me, but now I honestly do not know that. Maybe I *could* have seen it through and been alright--if I could just have felt secure enough in the relationship. If I could just have felt secure in a relationship where my man wouldn't communicate, keep his word, and was bound to become verbally abusive from time to time. But if I had more of the qualities he's looking for, if I were just a confident, self-possessed woman with her own life, maybe he *would* have kept his word, wanted to marry me, not been abusive.
Thus we have the makings of self-torture.
I am going to pray for guidance today, o.p. Thank you so much for helping me through this.
poster:kara lynne
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