Posted by Temmie on September 8, 2003, at 20:58:04
In reply to Re: On the Mind of the Addict » Temmie, posted by fallsfall on September 8, 2003, at 20:47:28
Thank you Fallsfall.
I am heartsick.
I know you are right. I am in love with an ideal -- a fiction I created and believed in (and wondered about) in the 20 years between when I "knew" Paul last ... which wasn't apparently "knowing" at all, and when I "found" him again ... 20 years later.
The song, "Amazing Grace" came to my mind after writing that last post. "I was blind ... and ... still don't see."
That's all it is.
I'm not open to experiencing the "higher" spiritual reality, because I'm holding on to a vision/reality that doesn't exist ... and there's no room for anything other than this to manifest.
Oh -- I do need to get back to Psycho-Babble Faith, and start finding time again for meetings. You know, the Al-Anon meetings.
I've just got to start seeing straight.
Thank you. I so value your thoughts, experiences, insight, wisdom -- and the great time and heart you put into writing me.
I'm sorry for being such a wimp, and for taking soooo long to sort this thing through.
Sad Temmie.
P.S. You'd think Dinah, your imposter would be more skilled at spelling your name -- but then he/she wouldn't be able to post. Sorry. T.
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