Posted by Tabitha on August 30, 2003, at 23:55:43
In reply to I am Feeling Creepy Tonight, posted by Temmie on August 30, 2003, at 20:54:22
Temmie, I was having similar thoughts tonight--that my life is a little unreal. I'm 40, single, childless, living 2000 miles from family, and while I have a few friends I cherish, I often end up alone on weekends and holidays when I'd rather have companionships. It doesn't seem quite like a real life.
I also recently went through a temptation to become a caretaker to a man that wasn't quite a fully functioning adult. I thought (briefly) that if he provided love and companionship, it was OK that I'd provide the money and home. And I did this once before, in my first marriage in my 20s, and I know that it doesn't work. I want an equal partner (I think), yet I seem to fall in love with child-men. I even had the thought that maybe I was compensating for being childless by loving a childlike man. Or something.
Anyway, I understand how hard it is to be alone, struggling with depression and anxiety, and not quite have the life and love you want. If your son just left home, it's no wonder you're in a bit of a tailspin.
That 'chop wood carry water' is good advice. I'm having a fair amount of depression lately, and just trying to keep moving and take care of stuff around the house. It doesn't really make me feel better, but I think the alternatives (drinking, too much TV, calling the 'ex') would certainly make me feel worse, so I guess it's the best option.
And are you getting any exercise? Do you do any yoga or anything? That always helps a little.
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