Posted by Penny on June 30, 2003, at 22:53:42
In reply to Re: Surviving... » Penny, posted by noa on June 30, 2003, at 19:56:27
> >As usual, I am a terrible person, a terrible friend, a terrible employee, a terrible daughter and granddaughter, and the only thing I think I might be even close to good at is being a dog owner, and even that is iffy.
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> Penny, is this what you think the roommate's attitude is or is this what you think and feel? I can't tell from the post.I think mostly what I think and feel, based on other's reactions to me, expectations of me that I can never live up to, etc. I guess I was being a bit sarcastic, but not completely. :-(
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> If it is you saying it about yourself, forgive my stepping over a boundary, as I hardly know you, but somebody's gotta do it---consider yourself metaphorically grabbed by the shoulders and shaken a bit and --really forgive me--told to "stop it".You're forgiven! Thanks, I needed that.
> I hope you see this as supportive--I do, thanks.
> You sound depressed. Or, to use a cliche--"it sounds like the depression talking". Do you think you are getting what you need to out of your meds, or do you need to tweak them some?
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> Not that I am of the 100% meds/biology camp--I'm not--I see that what is going on in your life is also a big part. But my own experience was that my meds had to be adequately addressing the depression before I could really deal effectively with the life crap.
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> If the depression were treated more adequately, I think we'd be 'hearing' a more angry, empowered voice from you--rightfully angry about the crappy attitudes you've encountered from friends and family. But a more empowered, angry voice.
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> Know what I mean?Yeah, I am in the med-tweaking stage right now. Definitely a combo of life stuff and med stuff that hasn't balanced out yet.
But I've been working on angry and empowered for a long time. I have a problem with empowerment, can't seem to grasp it for myself. I hate to use the term 'victim' as I don't like to think of myself in that manner, but I just feel totally out of control of my own life.
Okay, anyway, maybe I can more sense of all of this in the morning.
thanks, though, noa.
Penny
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