Posted by sienna on March 12, 2003, at 18:25:34
In reply to Re: which is it?, posted by paxvox on March 11, 2003, at 18:27:56
You are right pax there is no validation that i am a worthless idiot. Im sure i am being too hard on myself. I know that intellectually but emotionally i feel that im not being hard enough. I don tknow why i feel like i am so horrible. Abuse from years past? Seems like a long time ago. i mean i have good friends and people love me even if I do think they are just being nice. I guess its just hard. I feel worthless because I am unproductive. It takes so much energy to do the smallest things.
My best friend tidies up my house becuase she feels bad for me im so disorganized. i put clothes in the washer and realize three days later that they never make it to the dryer. I study for hours and hours for a test do thousands of math problems, know the material backwards and forwards and then get a B because i dont read the questions right.
I could sit and play computer games for hours or read the boards or watch movies. Anythign to escape from real life. Im a coward.
Sienna
lf. Happens to all of us. Tell me where it hurts. What makes you feel you are such a miserable person?
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