Posted by Eddie Sylvano on December 13, 2002, at 9:56:16
In reply to Re: On anger...Eddie Sylvano, posted by ROO on December 13, 2002, at 8:50:17
>It's just
> betrayal on so many levels. That's enough to numb anyone out, shut anyone
> down. Did you EVER used to want friends, or is this not wanting to
> make friends a relatively new thing, somehow related to the divorce?
--------------------------------It was pretty lousy. We'd been married for about 6 years (my first and only love at the time), and I'd never had a better or closer best friend. The worst part was that they both lied about ever even talking to each other during our seperation, which left me wondering why my friend didn't seem interested in talking to me anymore, when we previously spent a great deal of time together. I only found out about their marriage because a friend of my grandma worked the info out of my ex's former boss at the greeting card store. Oh yeah, and she told me she wanted a divorce on Christmas Eve. Bah.
As for the question, yes, I had a relatively normal desire to have friends before all this happened, and this has only developed in the years following that. No matter how much time I spend with guys nowadays, I never feel any closer to them as friends, and don't really want to (and the situation's not much different with women). It's sad because I used to have great times hanging out with my buddies, just goofing around, mountain biking, playing frisbee, talking. It was the cheapest and easiest way I've ever experienced so much happiness. Now I just feel really awkward about it, and can't relate to potential friends.
Thanks for the response, btw. It's nice to have someone hear my sob story. It *is* pretty soap opera.
poster:Eddie Sylvano
thread:33113
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