Posted by gabbix2 on December 11, 2002, at 21:54:30
In reply to Same here! » gabbix2, posted by Kar on December 11, 2002, at 17:06:21
Hi Kar, thanks.
No I don't mind you asking a bit.
I take Paxil, this week, actually its working quite well, I'd been on it years ago when I was nieve, and though it helped my depression it had a single (sexual) side effect, so I switched to Prozac, which worked, but needed to be boosted with t3 hormone, and dexedrine and pooped out eventually
After ending my extremely negative experience with Effexor recently, somehow that ONE side effect from Paxil sounded heavenly.
I'd since been diagnosed as Bp11. Previously it was unipolar, refractory, progressive cyclical depression..which is unfortunately true.
Now I have episodes of hypomania too, so I'm on a small dose of chlorapromazine, and my new p.doc is thinking about lithium,If i'm in a stable situation which is rare, fortunately I am right now, I would not become suicidal.
If my stability is rattled in any way, though I do become suicidal. A friend said to me recently that the slightest hint of uncertainty does drive me crazy (in the true sense) I did promise after last summer to my family that I wouldn't attempt again. Mostly I have to take it on faith that there is some reason to be here, that is when I'm not actively keeping myself from doing myself in.Such a cycle though, I've got a.d.d as well and the combination makes any stability as in a job, or even enough mood consistant days in a row to reach a goal. Its getting worse, and It's frightening to not go forward enough to have anything to fall back on.
Well I have lots more to say, but I should probably end this for your sake..
And what is your prescription? How long have you been battleing the bp, do you work?
I always wonder how people work, though I did have a fairly good job up until two years ago.
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